Addictive Behaviors
Alcoholism Almost Ruined Me, But Christ Redeemed Me
For years, alcohol was my best friend. At least, that’s what I told myself. It was always there—at parties, after a bad day, when I wanted to loosen up, when I wanted to forget.
Journal
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Reflections on faith, Scripture, and the deeper life.
Faith & Identity
Lust vs. Love — Learning the Difference the Hard Way
I used to throw the word “love” around like it was nothing. “I love her.” “I’m in love.” Truth? Most of the time, it wasn’t love at all—it was lust dressed up in nice clothes.
Addictive Behaviors
My Story — From Womanizer to Christ-Centered Man
Our culture tells us being a “player” is the dream. Hookups, casual sex, endless dating apps—it’s painted as freedom. Movies, music, even social media glamorize the guy with “options.” And for a while, I bought into it.
Addictive Behaviors
The Trap of OnlyFans and Digital Lust
Scroll through social media today, and it feels like temptation is everywhere. Skimpy TikToks. Thirst traps on Instagram. Then comes the DM: “Check out my page .”
Addictive Behaviors
Escaping the Grip of Chronic Masturbation
Let’s be real… nobody wants to talk about this. Masturbation is the elephant in the room. For years, I thought I was the only guy stuck in this cycle. I convinced myself, “It’s natural. It’s not hurting anyone. Every guy does it.” But behind closed doors, I was enslaved.
Addictive Behaviors
Breaking Free from Porn: My Battle, My Breakthrough
Porn is the silent killer of our generation. It’s the hidden addiction that nobody wants to admit, the skeleton in the closet of millions of young men—including me. I never thought I’d get hooked. I told myself I was just curious, that “every guy does it,” and that I could quit whenever I wanted. But what started as curiosity in my early teens grew into chains I dragged well into my twenties.
Faith & Identity
When Doubt Creeps In: Holding Onto Faith in Uncertain Times
I never thought I’d say it out loud, but here it is: I’ve doubted God. Not in the casual, fleeting way of wondering if He’s listening, but in the deep, unsettling way of questioning if He’s even there. For a long time, I kept those thoughts locked up. I was ashamed. After all, aren’t Christians supposed to be certain, unwavering, strong in faith?
Faith & Identity
When Prayers Feel Empty: Rediscovering Intimacy With God
I remember kneeling by my bed one night, whispering words that felt like they were bouncing off the ceiling. My lips moved, but my heart felt numb.
Anxiety
Trusting God With My Future: Lessons From Worry and Surrender
I would lie awake at night rehearsing scenarios in my head, like a director planning every possible outcome of a movie that hadn’t even started filming. My prayers often sounded more like anxious bargaining than trust: “Lord, please let it work out this way. Please don’t let that happen. Please give me a sign.”
Grief & Loss
Finding Hope After Loss: How God Met Me in My Grief
Grief doesn’t knock politely—it crashes into your life, flipping everything upside down. One day you’re planning tomorrow. The next, tomorrow looks unrecognizable.
Faith & Identity
Learning to Forgive Myself: A Journey Through Guilt and Grace
There was a season when I replayed the same mistake over and over in my mind, like a movie stuck on repeat. No matter how many times I confessed it, no matter how many sermons I heard about grace, I couldn’t shake the guilt.
Faith & Identity
When Doubt Creeps In: How I Held On to Faith Through Questions
I used to think “real Christians” never doubted. I thought faith meant unshakable certainty—never asking questions, never wondering if God really heard me, never doubting His Word.